Nyanness

Sometimes I feel like just letting it go. Because there is simply no point in it. But then some thing would occur that would encourage me to just carry on.

I want his closeness, but at the same time, I am afraid of it, because I am unsure of how to proceed from there.

But the ultimate thing I would always wonder about, is how he feels. 

Will this continue on like this, and just end up all meh? ._.